Thursday, September 07, 2006
Four years ago today I lost someone that will always have a big place in my heart. William Andy Edwards, Andy as he liked to be called, was my first "true love". I was in love with him off and on for 5 years before we started dating. When I got the phone call that he had died in a car accident I felt like my heart had been ripped out of me. I cried the whole day and I still get teary eyed from time to time thinking about him. He pops into my head at the strangest times sometimes but I know that knowing him and being with him has helped make me who I am now.
My history with Andy is quite a story but I don't want to put it all out here. There's only a few people that read this anyways and the one that should know this story already does.
You can't live your life with regrets because you will miss out on all the good things still to come. Yes there are sometimes that I wonder what would have happened if things had gone differently with me and Andy but then I'm reminded that I wouldn't be where I am now if they had. I do have one small regret about my time with Andy....I don't have a single picture of us. This picture is of Andy's best friend Patrick with Andy in the background. I had to snag it off of Patrick's profile page on Hi5.
So, with that I leave you with one of Andy's saying for someone who was looking down and out...."What's a matter? Did your cat die?"